May 30th, 2007

Subject: news!!! Time: 11:55 am

First i must express my distaste at certain people's existance. they are too perfect and i hate them for resons beyond their perfection... but the perfect part is just sort of salt in the wound. Fuck the world. On to happier things... WE GOT OUR HOUSE!!!! ok so tj has the key and everyone sept me is moving in partialy if not totaly today. Its exciting! yay. As for my life, courage and self confidence are the plan or at least the hope. But i am a groovy chick so it shouldn't be much of an issue. right? Back to class...

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April 18th, 2007

Subject: HOOKIES!!!!!!! Time: 09:43 pm

I'm worried about a couple people right now, since the horrible event at VT i've been unable to contact my darlig hookies that i miss so much. If anyone knows anything about the well being of the people i know at tech... THIS MEANS YOU HOOKIES... MESSAGE ME!!!! i need to know you are ok... and to all of my friends, i love you. things happen out of the blue so often, make sure you share the love.

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December 28th, 2006

Current Music: scrubs playing in the background Current Location: room Subject: eternity Time: 09:24 pm Current Mood: busy

So life is as always crazy for me. too many things to do, do many expectations and demands from others. i always strech myself too thin, but there doesn't seem to be much i can do about it. I'm told by those who care about me to take time for myself and my own mental health. especialy since my break down a few days ago. but yet when i try to i get to hear that i'm letting people down. and i can't seem to balance family, friends, and my baby. but if i try to do something with one i get to hear it from the rest of them because i'm ditching them for the other. its strange how demanding and territorial people can be. they even fucking tell me to take it easy. saying that, i get to tell everyone now that between work and my crazy demands if you want to hang out you have to make an apt. its crazy i know but sadly true. for example today i made an apt. with my darling lost smidge. i haven't seen her in ages and i miss her. but YAY!!!!! i get to see her sat night. so please, those who i haven't seen need to call me or write me on myspace or here so we can hang. i'm down till the 7th. then back to school. i kinda have mixed feeling about that too, i'm dying to get out of my parents house but i will miss my baby and my friends. oh well enough for now. peace

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September 30th, 2006

Time: 11:32 am Current Mood: amused

first thing first... salvia tastes terrible and is a worthless one time drug. that being said i fucking fell out of reality. i leaned back and it all melted away. for two minutes i spent a day in another world. good times, i think it was also the room we were in and the environment, but it was a good night and today i'm execting my baby up here. i haven't posted in ages so thought i'd drop a service anouncement about salvia... it tastes like shit!!!

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September 6th, 2006

Current Music: pretty woman playing in the background Current Location: my apt Subject: update on my world Time: 01:56 pm Current Mood: calm

i can't seem to stay consistant on anything really so i'm here to fill in some of the blanks on my entries. this week has blown so i have to fix a lot of things, its gonna take time. but i have fixed one thing, which makes me feel a whole bunch lighter. and i'm engaged, yeah i know... holy shit. it happened a while ago i'm just waiting on the ring, but as far as i'm concerned he is already my husband. he is very good to me and all i could want in a man and more. i'm very lucky. i'm back in orlando and missin my baby, but its ok i'll see him soon. i'm just happy and i know how lucky i am, i thank him all the time for simply loving me. its good time. peace everyone. Mrs. Nottage

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August 5th, 2006

Subject: SWEDEN Time: 07:14 am

I am in paris airport right now and first things first i forgot how crazy these keyboards are. oye. So i cant seem to get onto myspace. damn air france. If you want to talk to me either email me or comment here. take care guys!!!!

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May 29th, 2006

Current Music: Butch Walker Subject: where do i go from here? Time: 03:45 pm Current Mood: blank

so whats going on with me. i've reclused into a happy place. that world within myself. sept this time i brought someone with me. gabe makes me smile. wich is nice. he takes care of me because he wants to. the only tiffs we have are about him paying for shit all the time. what a life right. if that was my only complaint life would be peachy. but of course there is more and this it the place to unload my shit right? its what everyone else does. my fone keeps craping out on me. like the battery dies and i get mesages and missed calls like fucking days later. which blows. i had hoped to see krizten and nessa this summer but nessa is always working and i'm trying to find a job. not to mention this getting up at 6 in the morning to get gabe to work is kicking me in the ass so when people want to chill at night i'm dead. no fair. i feel like i'm neglecting my friends, but there are very few that call me, and i kinda figure the fone works both ways ya know. i talk to either jared or branden every day. cause they call me. i talk to matt cause he calls me. and gabe or alex call me everyday. and randomly i get a text from ricki or i call her on a whim. and leanne tries to make sure i'm not dead by giving me a call everyonce in a while. everyone else has so much to do or their own agendas. i get that but it kinda makes me sad, i sould see if people are still alive at least. hmmm... that was fun... i'm bored, more to say but i just don't care enough to type it all. hope everyone is having a good summmer.

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May 16th, 2006

Subject: jobless in plantation Time: 05:40 pm Current Mood: anxious

I NEED A DAMN JOB!!! like holy crap i need money. hmmmm... damn this bad luck. i'm so not digging it. oh and damn this whole anxitey bit, not enjoying the being stressed out and jittery. uncool.

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April 27th, 2006

Current Music: CMT in the background... hell yeah!!! Current Location: my apt. Subject: I am coming home!!!! Time: 11:13 am Current Mood: busy

So i'm sitting in orlando in the middle of a busy, busy day. I thought i'd drop a line and update the world on me a little bit. i have no time to do this but hell i might as well. ~ok so school is the devil, i mean seriously its kicking my ass. ~i changed my major. I'm gonna shrink people's heads now. ~i'm gonna be home friday evening which means i'm home for banquet. ~i'm dating gabe now, he makes me smile. ok there is really too much to say in the time i have so fuck it. I miss ya'll and i'll be seeing you soon. give me a call and we'll hang out.

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March 2nd, 2006

Subject: long time no see... Time: 02:27 pm Current Mood: complacent

Hmmm... where have i been. that is in fact the question my friend. i have been a big 'ol basket of crazy. that was fun. i'm head over heels for and amazing guy. I've been feeling like shit and been totaly all over the place but things are starting to look up. today was a good day. things are still fucked up and always will be to some point but i'm happy to say my outlook has changed considerably. oh and shit a brick... i'm being productive. like doing my work and going to class. holy cow what a good idea. anyways... i hadn't written in a while and thought that i should. its a new day guys...

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January 24th, 2006

Subject: look at me!!! Time: 10:58 am

dude. i'm on the freakin' homepage. dude. me. http://karnevalmasque.com/pages/7/index.htm

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January 15th, 2006

Subject: lost Time: 05:04 pm Current Mood: sick

i don't have a damn clue. i just don't even know anymore. love is pain... and joy... so confusing. i hate causing pain. i want to make all of those i care about happy. it just isn't easy i guess. nothing is easy. where the hell is my easy button. oh and i'm still sick, much better but still sick... and unfortunately two of my roommates hate me now... they feel sick now too. ugh!!!

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January 10th, 2006

Subject: a new semester Time: 11:23 am Current Mood: awake

I have started classes and the first two don't seem bad. my comp is on the fritz so the online one is gonna be an issue if i don't fix it soon. i'm doing grade forgiveness on my skrew up from last semester. so things should be getting better. we will see. i had a good break, unfortunately i was a bitch and broke a sweet guys heart. someone tried to use me to cheat on their partner. unkool. i stopped that. i awoke into an old dream that i thought made me happy. i'm unsure of that happiness now. oh and i'm sick, yay for being frozen and flooded out of my tent two sleepless nights in a row. i really did have a good time in sugarloaf tho... good times and awesome poi at bardic. i got taken out on a few dates by mikey... so sweet. i already mentioned the "family vacation" it was awesome. i had good times with good friends. only one regret and otherwise it was a top notch vacation. i don't even care that i'm sick now. i hope everyone else had fun.

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December 24th, 2005

Time: 11:04 pm Current Mood: sleepy

i'm so glad i'm getting to see alot of you south florida people again. i missed a lot of you. its been good times, a few bad days but such is life. I'm ok with the bad, cause i've been in worse and felt worse, everything will change like it always does and somethings i take comfort in their constant nature. it is ok for a few things in life to be predictable. helps you to get an edge on the shit that makes no sense. hmmm... vaugue ranting... always fun. Gabe is coming back into town tomarrow, i'm gonna go see him. not sure how that is gonna go... if it goes well then yay and i will have welcomed a friend back, knowing him i think thats how it'll be. i've missed him, and i totaly want to hear about all of his stories, that bastards been gone almost a year. Then on monday i head out on a "family" vacation with mikey, lexi, krizten, and their mom. Vanessa and i are the non-family/ totaly family additions. it should be fun. i'm looking foward to it actually. yay!!! so a few good things and now to end with a glimps into the special charlotte of today. evilweepinwillow (11:03:34 PM): fine... i like my humor.. i will laugh at it if you don't return, just so it doesn't feel abandoned people leave comps and fuck that... i'll just keep talking. why do people let me talk. i think my babble amuses people sometimes. i think i just sound short bus, but i'm ok with that. cause everyone on the short bus is cool, everyone of the seats is in the back. there i go talking again and horrible quoting a brainless film. merry x-mas and such.

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December 20th, 2005

Subject: anyone else up for giving me an organ... maybe a new back??? Time: 06:33 pm Current Mood: frustrated

thank you smidge for your kindness, your kidney will look nice on my shelf till i need it. today i was without car. silly me i woke up(thank you k) and got ready and went out to my driveway in order to start my chores and then hang out with my friends. but holy shit, my driveway was bloody empty. it ruined my whole day. i had shit to do and people to see but mom took my car. she said she wouldn't. so i disapointed someone and myself. well its in the past so oh well. it just really pissed me off at the time. everything is just delayed untill tomarrow. i know none of that mattered to anyone i just haven't posted in a bit. oh well.

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December 17th, 2005

Time: 02:43 am

mood swings blow. but luckily there is still the rain to help wash it all away.

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December 9th, 2005

Subject: GUESS WHAT?!?!??!?! Time: 01:51 am Current Mood: hehehe

ANNOUNCEMENT: I'm Twenty!!! Holy crap guys, it is totally my BIRTHDAY!

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December 8th, 2005

Time: 06:49 pm

yup. no way i can say how upset i was/am. she can't stop smiling cause she is so happy. she did an off hand sorry when i mentioned that i had wanted to sell my books today. ::sigh:: i'm just glad she is so happy. i'll get over it. My little kachina is basicaly engaged, and she is happy.

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Subject: everlasting gobstopper Time: 06:04 pm

the subject just came to me and it fits well i think. ( my icky everlasting gobstopper. ) can i just throw it out and be happy?

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December 2nd, 2005

Time: 07:39 pm Current Mood: contemplative

so even i have become bored with my emotional rollercoaster so i will ignore it and stay numb for a while. maybe that will work. also kachina, blake and i got a tree and have decorated it for kachina's apt. it looks cute.

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